Okay now where to start... a lot of things happen in Octavia's and I will tell you a lot of it does not make sense. But she is learning slowly but surely, and it always seems to be that she likes to take the hardest road possible to getting anything done or for anything to happen for her. Although she does not try to do this on purpose, it is just the way she is. A difficult person at times to know and love but there are a few that still do. I do pitty them from time to time.
You may wonder why I am talking about myself in the third person, this is because it is the only way i can be honestly telling you what I really am like. Sometimes like every teenager she wishes that she wasn't who she was. And it took her a long to accept what she really was. And I will tell you she kicked and screamed the whole way and still is to this day. Unfortunately.... But then we all have to grow up sometime.. She just doesn't want to have to grow up and face reality, It can be a scary thing when you have been closely protected from most of the bad things that really do go on in the real world. You may not realise what really happen but when you find out boy do ya find out it can be scary as well and it can even threaten your life if go out finding and feeling out the world in the worst ways. Octavia did though she did everything possible to ruin everything she had. She lost some of the things she use to have and has finally learnt lesson number 1. As usual it was done the hard way.
Maybe in the future she will be more careful about the friends she chooses to have and the things she chooses to do.. Octavia's family was very worried about her when she went on a bender about 12 months ago she moved out of home with her boyfriend at the time and her family really did not expect her to come home again.. But she did thankfully and if she didn't she would not be alive at this present moment.
To all those who may be reading this wondering what all this weird stuff have to do with a wiccan page well, it was the road that lead her to wicca. A hard road at that. Now that Wicca is in her life she has had to do a lot of growing up and facing hard reality and looking at her past. some was good in the past but most wasn't exactly memorable. Best left in the past, after all it did happen in the. We don't live in the past we live in the present and look to the future. sometimes we look back at the past and think how could I of done that, and hopefully we learn form the past mistakes. After all that is why we are all here on earth isn't it to learn?? well that is Octavia's thoughts anyway.
Well now to the basics of Octavia, She is currently 18 at the moment born on the 26th of April, in Williamstown Hospital to her proud parents at the time, about a year and a half later along popped her brother 'Armer' in October of 1981. They got on well, close as well, always have been. Still are to this day have had the usual spats between each other but they are still best of mates. Octavia and Armer lived with their parents in Melbourne till Octavia reached the age of about 13 and then her parents spilt up, was not a nice spilt though her mother ended up taking her children away into a womens refuge in country victoria. To escape the violence of her former partner. They were all pretty much screwed up for the next couple of years but things finally did settle down, about 4-5 years later. Octavia went back to school after they made the move as she had dropped out halfway through Year 8, and then went back the next year to complete year nine, at the country school. It was a big change for them but adjustment had to be made as her parent were not going to get back together. Not that her Father was ever a father to her. She had no father to miss. School was hassle, Different people different area compared to Melbourne. Octavia went on to complete half of year 12 and then she dropped out. That was when she was with her boyfriend of the time Chris. She loved him, but he never returned the love that she gave him. She moved out with him and then they spilt up a couple of months after they had been living together. While she was living with her boyfriend she had developed a drug problem. This confused her as she was not sure of what was really happening. She was deeply hurt, but she never let him see how hurt she was. She was living alone and felt betrayed and hurt and very isolated. She had gotten a job at a local supermarket. That was what kept her going if she didn't have that job she wouldn't of made it through, It did make her feel wanted. Because her ex-boyfriend had betrayed her. Living alone she couldn't handle it, she had a big house with just her and her dog, 'Jessi'. She then had to make one of the hardest decisions of her life and it was to go home to her mum and tell her she was sorry and that she had stuffed up and she wanted to move back home. When she did this she was still in a drugged up state still not too sure of what was going on but she felt safe at home with her family. She knew that they still cared about her and that she would not feel alone there. It was home after all.
She is now still living with her mother and her brother and things could not be better she has a job she likes and confortable home. Aftre she had moved home the questions about wicca and just genrally life questions started being asked and now that she was old enough she wa told who she really was and that is Celtic Wiccan. This has given here the strength to pull thorugh all the hurt and pain that had happend to her in the past. But still do this day she still battles on with the troubles of every day life. But being Wiccan is a strength that keeps her alive and breathing. Its not all the be all and end all of everything she lost alot of friends in the last couple of years but she now knows who her real friends are and sh eis more carefuk as to who she trusts. She was very niave and stupid but now things have changed, she is more aware of what is happening around her. At the present moment she is loving the single working life, living at home and enjoys bushwalking, swimming, music, going out with mates, playstation games and the internet of course. People think the internet is a big crock but i have met quite a few REAL people on the internet and there aren't that many but when you get to know them its great, becasu eyou can be open in totally different ways to in the real world you can tell complete stranger you deepest darkest secrets and they cant do anything about it, they don't know here you live and they can't hurt you. You can be totally anonymous and hide from people you don't want to see. Well enough of this for now. check out the rest of my page and mail me if you wish to ask something. I willbe happy to reply to anyone with any questions. my mail addy is [email protected] hope tp hear form you soon..
Merry Part
for now.
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